Following My Heart’s Desire
I picked a card from my brand new Tarot deck today: "Three of Cups," meaning celebration, friendship, gifts. This feels right. Two weeks ago, sitting cross-legged on my favorite pastel pink square cushion, a flash came during meditation. I heard my own voice saying: "You're going to Buenos Aires as planned on November 2, and you won't return to Boise, Idaho. You'll stay in Argentina for 6 months, then possibly settle somewhere in Europe."
Bam. Eyes closed, I felt my spine strong, my heart opening, butterflies filling my stomach. A deep knowing, certainty, excitement. I recognized the feeling. No second-guessing; this felt so right. Just like that, a decision was made for me.
The idea had been fermenting since my first visit to Argentina in 2016 and subsequent trips. While Buenos Aires feels familiar, living there full-time made me anxious. Something held me back. Recently, things changed: my cousins moved back to France, increasing my feeling of remoteness. I replaced partner dancing with Kung Fu, gaining focus and groundedness. My relationship with my Argentinian boyfriend grew stronger. I connected with coach groups in France, the UK, and Argentina. A dear friend moved into my spare bedroom, open to taking over my lease. Suddenly, many doors opened, showing the same path.
I'm aware part of this decision seems irrational. Argentina is amid crisis. The economy is faltering, politics are chaotic, inflation is soaring, the peso fluctuates, and protests fill the streets of Buenos Aires. Realistically, it's probably the worst time to move there. But I've always followed my heart; it hurts when I don't. The rational part is present but not in the driver's seat. I think: if not now, when? If I wait for everything to align, I might wait forever.
What ifs? For me, it boils down to this: I hold American and European passports. I have love and support from family and friends. I trust myself. I'll be ok.
Friends, let's celebrate! To the end of a chapter and the beginning of a new one. Cheers.
Life is too short to wait for the perfect moment. Sometimes, you need to take a leap of faith and trust in yourself.